When I left our session, I felt so clear and whole. I felt an internal alignment I can’t remember having felt before, at least not for a very long time. I felt my craving for something outside of myself diminished – practically gone. I felt like myself again.
About halfway home, I felt the urge to yell or scream. In the last couple of years, I’ve screamed a few times to get the pain out of my chest, but the screams were difficult, congested, and forced. But this time it came without resistance. I screamed in the car louder and more powerful than I have in my entire life. It was amazing.
Perhaps the most surprising outcome of the healing was with my appetite and metabolism. Since seeing you, (2 weeks time) I’ve dropped ten pounds without any effort. My relationship to food has changed dramatically. No more gnawing hunger. No more stress or depression snacking. Sometimes I feel like I want to eat but it’s a negligible desire. I could eat or I could not eat- no big deal. When I need food, I don’t feel a craving hunger, just a pleasant emptiness. Unwanted subcutaneous fat is disappearing on its own, and I love feeling the hardness of my muscles under the thin layer of skin. I feel younger, fitter, lighter, and stronger.
As a result of childhood trauma or neglect, I have a hard time remembering, especially remembering feelings during events. I can’t remember how it felt to be in the session. I can only conjure up fleeting visual memories. I wish I could remember the feeling. But I know the effects were real and transformative. You said at the end that you were honored to create that space for me. I didn’t know what to say, but I know you feel honored – I would too to offer that to others – but what I want to say is that I feel grateful and privileged to have had the experience and the healing that it provided.